Ever since I was eleven, or twelve, I can't really remember when I got so involved in exploring the internet, I've always wanted a blog-a blog where I can emote and write about my day, making it my online diary, which I think is the whole purpose of making a blog but I never really kept a diary for a long period of time because I usually got too lazy to write about my day so I think you get the analogy from there BUT I still made a blog and do you want to know what happened? I stopped blogging a year later.
The thing is: I can never bring myself to plug the internet on, open the laptop, wait for the internet to load fully, open a browser, look for my blog, and type about what happened to me which I usually forget by the time I'm about to write it. Blogger issues or maybe it's just me. Also, my vocabulary is not that broad and I always tend to be redundant which annoys me very much since I dream of becoming a successful writer slash photographer slash actress slash singer but that's not point. The whole 'admiring to become a photographer slash actress slash singer' thing. THE POINT IS, I just want to write like other bloggers too except I don't know what to blog about and how in the freaking heck am I going to be successful if my lazy ass can't open a goddamn laptop and just TYPE.
I have this habit of blaming myself for everything that happens in my life. I blame myself for starting a photography blog that looks like utter crap right now. I checked the statistics of my blog and ever since 2013 started, I have had no page views, which is understandable because I hadn't made a new post before 2012 ended. I didn't make any new year resolutions because I always make some and I don't really accomplish them throughout the year. I don't want to make promises because they say that promises are meant to be broken, or was it some promises are meant to be broken? I can't remember. I also have this habit of not remembering important things, that's probably the reason behind the epic failure of my blogs.
I know you're probably already tired of my story of how I fail at making and updating blogs but I don't always fail at everything.
2013. It's a new year, obviously. I survived the apocalypse that was 'supposed' to happen on the 21st of December. Here I am, blogging about my new life in Africa and now you wonder how we got wifi over here. Technology, my dear Elizabeth. Technology is what makes the world rotate in its axis and revolve around the sun.
I'm sorry. There was no apocalypse and everyone's still alive and well. I'm still in the Philippines, living a sixteen-year old, college-stressed, fandoms-ruled life and making a text post about myself at seven thirty in the evening.
This was supposed to be a photography blog but the thing is, I've been taking so much pictures but haven't got the time to upload them. Well, I have the time but I didn't bring myself to plug my phone into my laptop and transfer the photos and upload them.
So generally, I'm a lazy person and I shouldn't make blogs because I have no capacity to update them every once in a while. Also, I live a dull life. I'm not a make-up guru who posts tutorials and products I use to make myself pretty, although I think I think I'm allergic to make-up which is why.
Since this is a photography blog, I think I need to say that I don't own any professional cameras although I dream of having one. I always like to see the world in high definition. I promised, promised, to make myself earn a hundred and twenty five pesos for a hundred and sixty days in order to earn for this camera:
It only costs twenty thousand pesos which, I think, I have the ability to earn. My mom kept on asking me if it's necessary for me to buy one and I tell her that I might need it for my photojournalism class when I get to my third year level in college but, later, I found out that we're going to be using manual cameras so I guess this camera has no significant use for my education but pictures will look more bright and high in quality if I pursue to buy it.
I really do want to buy it though not just because I want to show people that I'm a rich, spoiled brat or just want to go with the mainstream. I'm not that kind of person. I want to buy it because I really do love taking pictures. I love photography and I would love to get a job involving this type of art.
Anyway, I find myself longing to change the theme of this blog because it looks dull and I don't like having borders on my pictures. I must act upon it before I forget about it.
So at last, I have made a formal, or maybe not-so formal, text post regarding my blog issues and how I need to learn how to sort my priorities. It's 20-freaking-13! There are some things that need to change and I honestly can't wait for these changes, good changes, to happen.
For now, I must say adieu. xx
P.S. I am not French, or German, or whichever language 'adieu' belongs to.
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